Butterfly Story

5:10 am

I CANT SLEEP!!! & CANT THINK OF ANYTHING TO DO.... (+_+)

IKHLAS DARI HATI-Erin

Assalamualaikum and good day everyone^^

I dont know y such an easier things will turn out to be such a difficult things that are unable for us to see it by our own mind,heart and soul...19 years has passed by n we are getting older day by day..so shud our mind and attitude left behind??

i keep thinking, y people always think that they are true in everything they do, until they neglect others feeling?

n y some people treat us bad while when with others,he or she treat them well?

                         i keep whispering..have i done anything wrong with them??

okey..lets move on..

adakah hal ini terjadi di sebabkan kita mempunyai latar belakang yang tidak sempurna seperti teman yang lain..oh ya..maybe dia senang dengan orang tu sebab orang tu kaya,pandai,cantik..pandai mengampu maybe..or even sbb dia rasa takut dgn org tu..

samalah juga seperti hal tadi..kita tahu dia  begitu..tapi kita tetap mahu berteman dengan dia..kenapa ya?? sehinggakan kita yang tidak bersalah d abaikan begitu sahaja..buli kita..ejek kita..sakitnya dan sengsaranya hati...Allah saja yang tahu..tapi, mak selalu pesan bahawa sabar itu separuh daripada iman..Ustaz pula cakap..Allah sentiasa bersama orang yang sabar...baca kat dalam buku pun katanya..Allah love us..that's y Allah test us often...

Bila orang kata kita hipokrit..pasti hati sangat sakit kan..ya begitu juga dengan saya..tapi..apa lah yang saya boleh buat???saya xtahu melawan,marah orang..sebab bila saya berbuat begitu..sakitnya hati orang itu pasti menyedihkan..saya xsanggup melihat kawan saya sedih...jadi konklusinya,biar saya saja yang bersusah-susah..Allah kan bersama saya..saya perlu takut apa??lagi pun..,menentang sesuatu dengan kekerasan pasti tidak akan pernah berhasil...sesuatu yang negatif..haruslah kita balas dengan positif..kalau negatif lawan negatif..pastilah berantakan jadinya..Tapi masalahnya pada masa sekarang??adakah orang akan berfikiran seperti saya???wud they take this thing easily??but who am i to observe them..none of my bussiness..so just let them think which one is the best for them...

sebenarnya..mata.telinga saya sakit melihat kepalsuan mereka...bila mereka berkata tentang sesuatu...adakah mereka ikhlas??susah untuk mentafsir keperibadian seseorang kan...cuma saya tak sengaja terlihat kepalsuan mereka itu...adakah perlu kita membuat mimik muka yang jelek bila melihat teman kita berpelukan dan bersedih???bukankah kita patut bergembira untuk mereka???mendoakan mereka???jadi adakah kata-kata yang keluar dari mulut kita sebentar tadi ikhlas??kata-kata manis yang kita luahkan??adakah benar atau hanya omong kosong supaya orang lain suka dengan kita??kita tidak perlu berkata2 sesuatu yang datang dari benak fikiran kita yang cetek...you say it best when you say nothing at all....tapi masih belum terlambat untuk kita berubah..senang saja..take all things easily and positively..

Now is the only time there is. Make your now wow, your minutes miracles, and your days pay. Your life will have been magnificently lived and invested, and when you die you will have made a difference.” – Mark Victor Hansen

.Teman-teman kenapa kasih sayang itu perlu kita rebut2kan..kenapa?bukankah kasih sayang itu adalah satu perasaan yang indah dan suci..lebih-lebih lagi sesama kita umat Islam..Perlukah kita merasa cemburu bila melihat seorang kakak menyayangi adiknya lebih dari yang kita lakukan,seorang ibu menyayangi anaknya lebih dari yang ibu kita lakukan dan yang lainnya...perlukah kita cemburu dan tidak senang melihat kebahagian orang lain sehingga perlu bermasam muka sesama sendiri? mungkin anda akan kata,"erin senangla cakap macam itu,padahal dia juga akan cemburu bila dia mendapat kurang perhatian dan kasih sayang dari orang lain"hehe..hal ini gampang sih...buat apa juga saya perlu jelez2 segala..saya punya keluarga yang sangat mencintai saya..xpernah kurang kasih sayang..dan yang paling penting saya tahu Allah sayangkan saya sebagai umatNya..teman2.walaupun mungkin pada dasarnya kelihatan bersahaja dengan saya..saya xpernah kisah akan hal itu...walaupun kadang2 terasa di hati,kenapa saya diperlakukan sebegini rupa..tapi tidak mengapa..saya masih bisa hidup..dan buktinya..saya bertahan sehingga sekarang..

Kita tidak bisa mengawal apa yang orang lain akan cakap dan buat terhadap kita,tapi kita boleh mengawal fikiran kita dan bagaimana kita bertindak.Choose thoughts carefully.Hidup yang bahagia lahir secara semulajadi when we cultivate a happy mind.Aturlah pemikiran kita supaya respon kita terhadap orang lain bukan sahaja sesuatu tindakan yang automatik tetapi sesuatu tindakan yang kita pilih. Dengan cara itu, kita akan menjadi seperti yang kita mau.

MENGELUH..perlukah hal ini wujud dalam kehidupan seharian kita??penat membuat sesuatu pekerjaan??namun akhirnya merasakan ia nya sia2..lalu berasa tawar hati untuk melakukannya..mungkin itu lagi baik daripada orang yang lansung tidak pernah merasa apakah erti sia-sia itu...dalam melakukan sesuatu..niat biar ikhlas...dont take things for granted...By encouraging and being honest to ourself, semua benda pun akan jadi senang...dan adakah susah untuk berkata terima kasih kepada orang lain yang banyak membantu kita..."THANK YOU"x memenatkan tekak pun...we live in a community,n we live in da same unit..so y must we count on others rather than do it by ourself??hey..we are gurlz right...its really bad when a gurlz doesnt noe how to keep their cleanliness well..went to da class look so pretty from top to toe...branded things decorates themselves..went back to da room..Astaghfirullahalazim...lets make our move...better late than never...

.......to be continue.........

remember..

hidup kita ni umpama sbuah buku yang kosong..dan kita adalah pengarang dari buku yang kita tulis itu

dn semuanya bergantung pada kita sendiri untuk mengisinya..mungkin dengan lukisan,tulisan ataupun corak yang abstrak..dan pasti juga ada helaian yang sudah koyak..dan bila sudah sampai di muka akhirnya..pasti susah untuk kmbali ke muka pertama...ad^^akah kita sanggup menulis dengan yang baru???

THANK YOU ALL for JanuarY..

i juz want to say thank you to them for da enjoyment they brought to me for this January...
mak n abah..i love you... abby n angah juga
wpun jauh kamu selalu
mbahagiakan daku...



firstly..my along n kak ainul...coz lastly they bought a laptop for me.i look for da cheapest one..erin ni..sapa xknal..mesti crik yg pling murah..asalkn blh guna kn..hehe...n it took one day for us to install all da program..n its quite tiring..not quite..but absolutely tiring..sit in front of da laptop for many hours i guess..but end up in a gud things..thanks for both of them..love them so mucchhyy...^_^

Secondly to my J besties...SOPHIE..for giving me ur "Kasih sayang"..u owez make me suprised u noe..honestly i said..i owez want u to noe dat im helping you without need any return..anyway thx for da butterfly ..i do love it..u r precious<3

Then to my roomate..esp AIN n LIA..u owez make me smile.laugh,cry..evendo it started with a tears on da January till the end of january..but still im strong enough to face both of u rite..hehe..hiding my teddy b4 i went home was absolutely make me mad actually..but its okay..haha..thanks coz owez belanja saya makan ya..ain n ur tortoise..happily ever after ya..lia n ain..love you^^thx temanin sy jogging..both of u are the apple of my eyes.. 

N oso da J...lyn,sae,bear..sgt seronok bersama kalian..t kita tgk wayang lg ya...thx coz accept me being part of da J..three of u are so precious to me...walaupun jarang meluangkan masa bersama...i jz hope dat our friendship will last forever...amin^^

n oso..Cik Yan..peneman sy ke kelas....n my comforter^^ syg cik yan..

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n oso..da gurlz in unit 23

lenny

ika

nisa

kathy

intan

yani

ain

jaja

ely

aleen

n

all my bestfren dat owez be beside me...

aku akan cakap ngn erin esok

kejadian ini diminta oleh erin sendiri..dia kata akan kawan dengan aku esok..so conclusion here...aku akan berkawan ngn dia esok k...and hari ni aku x kenal dia...sebab kami bukan kawan...so..ok...

BAck to December-Taylor Swift-^^

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/taylor-swift-lyrics/back-to-december-lyrics.html ]

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time

Gaining more+_+

What did i gain?n so waht did lia gain??
new friends?
new knowledge?
of course not..
we gain another kilo's huhu+_+..it was so sad n really sad as i thought i eat da same amount of foods everyday..im weighing my weight and extra plus plus kilo's added..

so what shud i do now??
i shud control my meals..as saying says

breakfast like a king
lunch like a princess
dinner like a beggar

can i do it??
nothing impossible in this life right..
everytime i meet my friends they will said that im fat..what the butterfly??huh
they make me felt down,down and down..
but i kept whispering..be patient zaireen..sabar is the answer..

so..i give some opinion to lia..that are..

1. fasting on monday and thursday
2. eat during lunch only
3. exercising more if possible

hopefully we can achive it..chaiyok2....^^..

new year..new semester..new hope..^^


pass all da quiz n test wif flying colour

get good grades for final exams


be good to people around you


use money wisely


manage time well


less entertainment, full concentration on studying


less eat unhealthy foods or water


exercise more to lose kilo's


read more on current issues


perform more prayers


saving money


less shopping


less topup


less texting


wake up early,sleep early


avoid get in contact with unwanted issues around you,means mind ur own bussiness


be true to urself


love urself everyday..


appreciate every moments in ur life...


dont talk sumtin without thinking


think wise..act wise...

what a day???

Assalamualaikum n gud day evryone^_^

adui...skg sudah msuuk semester 4 ya teman2..cepat bangat sih msuknya..haha..lepas aja dpt result exam hari tuh..fuhh..what a relieved..me,lia n ain hv pass all da papers n we hv gud grades too i guess..haha..what??i've been missing you for the whole day dear.....='(
n u noe what i think i hv lost my money..i've oredi took rm410 from my acc..however when i open my wallet dis morning to pay for da yuran..only 350 left..where's another 50+_+..sudahlah skg there's a hole in my pocket..huhu..oh i need to spend my money wisely after dis..i shud..i dun want to burden them anymore...n i need to pay for da books lg..what left..?? be strong dear zaireen..hee..u shud conceal ur sadness..dont let anyone knows..haha..im crazy oredi ni..+_+....okey la..talk later to u ms bloggggg...mwahh...*_*

ANYEONG 2010..ANYEONGHASEYO 2011^^

Assalamualaikum n gud day everyone..^_^

WOW...its oredi 2011 ya..so gudbye to beautiful years of 2010....

The year has come to an end..

as we take a bow,

we may meet again next year, InsyaAllah^^

while time passes by..

there's so many things dat teach us..

nothing is loss

but much to gain..

forgive the flaws and look ahead to meet again..

such a wonderful year...

when we shared our times together..

happiness,sadness,anxiety,chaotic,nightmare,dizziness..

but,we have achieve success without fear..

we really had gudtimes together..

Waving farewell as the year ends..

we shall moves on with our studies n life..

with vision so clear..

here i pen a fullstop for 2010 

and Hello to 2011..